I Have Waited

Yes I've waited 

For a man whose shoulders are strong enough to carry my dreams when my hopes fall silent

For someone who can carry the weight of my laugh, my smile, my pains and tears

Yes I've waited 

For a King, a Chief, a Commander, a Boss, a General, a Champion 

Yes I've waited 

For a sweep me off my feet, protector of my heart, one of a kind amidst the carbon copies

For someone who listens like my story is the only one that matters

Yes I've waited

For a Supporter, a Partner, a Confidant, a Companion, a Sidekick, a Friend

Yes I've waited

For the one who makes me feel the strength of his touch while enveloped in his softness

For someone that knows to hold me till after the storm, knowing when I cry, it rains

Yes I've waited 

For a Lover, an Equal, a Healer, a Soul Mate, a Comfort, a Match

Yes, I've waited

And those that think I've waited too long do understand to where he comes

To me, who has waited

Who aims to please, to cater, to attend to his every need

To see to a desire, a want, a wish.

To help fulfill his dream and complete his puzzle

To be his treasure, his first thought and his last kiss

In the end to find that he too has waited for me the same

I have waited......................

Together

When I've tried my best and failed
And my dreams come tumbling down
Be my strength and comfort
Assured that things will turn around
Can I call out your name
And know that you'll be there
Caring for my troubles
My sorrows, hurts and fears

When life is filled with problems
Heartaches and real pain
I need to know that you're there
When sunshine turns to rain
I need to know you love me
In every situation
That your love will never die
Fade or take a vacation

I promise to love you always
And cherish you everday
To lend a listening ear
When you've had a trying day
For life's not always sweet
And times are often hard
Together we can make it
Our love will never part.

Always

This was originally written when I was 16, I recently found my journal and this entry made me smile. So I decided to share


Tell me that you love me
Say you'll always care
Lie and say I have your heart
That you'll always hold me near

Let me feel your heartbeat
And on my face your kiss
My heart is yours to hold
If I'm granted my wish

Days when I feel lost
When my heart is shaded blue
Can I know that even then
I can turn to you

In the midst of my fear
And my heart wont go on
Be ready with your shoulder
For me to lean on

Forever Gone Away

You need to understand
I can't keep going on
No way I can pretend
I can't feel what's wrong

You need to see
My heart can't take the pain
My tears won't stop falling
They pour like rain

Whenever we said goodbye
How'd we get caught
In all these lies
And now forever's gone away

Why not just leave, goodbye
Instead my heart broke
You made me cry
And forever's gone away

Today Was A Good Day

Today was a good day.

I smiled and I laughed and at some point I even cried.

Through the tears I still felt like today was a good day.

Even though silently I wished to run away.

I wanted to spread my wings and take off

From the highest point and soar above everything

See it was a good day.

I hold to everyday and every dream

As if it were a lifeline

These dreams will take me there

To that place so far so long

I look back at today

With its ups and downs

Its twists and turns and without a doubt

I look up and say

Today was a good day

Just Smile

All too often sadness, depression can overtake you and leave you in a state of despair. It's then, it's at your breaking point that you need to break out a smile.

Interestingly enough, a smile can make a huge difference. Not just any smile. We've all seen those smiles

The Disingenuous Smile - they don't mean you any good and you know it
The Sly Smile - they're up to something (not necessarily bad, just slick)
The Just Because Smile - I'm smiling because I think that you expect me to smile

Those aren't the smiles you're looking for. This particular smile comes from someone that cares.

And you know what? They don't have to know you, or your situation. They just have to be sincere, and NON JUDGMENTAL, sympathetic to the fact that everyday has its degrees of highs and lows. They just have to CARE.

So today I'm gonna smile. And keep smiling.With everything going on in the world, maybe this smile will brighten a heart and project hope. A hope that happier, more productive days are around the corner.

Somewhere, someone needs to see your smile, so go ahead SMILE!

This Man

I close my eyes and there he stands.
A man without a face.
I reach for him
It seems like the more I reach
The further away he becomes
This dream all mine haunts me at daylight
It's as if he wants me to feel this pain.

Once I remember running to him
He didn't welcome me with open arms
Instead he remained as distant as before
I grew tired of running so I stopped
And there he was, still far away

Sometimes I think I hear him
laughing in the distance
Does he laugh and find joy in my calamity
I've made a vow. I will reach him
I won't stop till I see him face to face

His face has become my passion
I wonder about this man
Is he the prince little girls dream of
The man of my fairy tale world
I want to know him but he haunts me
And I don't know why
Do I deserve this, in my heart it's torment

He will answer someday
For he is my passion
This man of my dreams